hey hey... funny compics for you guys la... i got a lot... ok ok read from right to left... and up to down... duh chinese comics... ok ok here goes... number 1...

hahahaha he got bombed... lol... what you think...? who feels sorry for him... ok ok another simialr one...

lol... da elephant spreaded him this time.... hahahaha ok ok .... me getting a tummy ache... hahaha i got plenty more....

LOOK what i found.... Tokyo.... isnt it beautiful... especially under the moon...  hmmm brought it in Japan... anyone want it? nah... worth a lot of money... memories as well... hmmm brings back a lot of memories....anyways lai ma's favoriate....

oh... i'm home...!!! oh man... killed someone in handball today... this guy... hmmm dont know what team is he on... but i think he's first singles... wells me and Gary beat him and his friend in doubles.... hmm Gary.... dont know... messed up a lot of shots... but neways... i still mange to kick their ass... yea after... that guy asked me to palay 1 on 1... what the hey.... so i played ... i told him 7 points... cause i'm lazy like that... dont like long single games... yup... hmmm the score was me 4 him 1 then he caught up to like point game... i messed up... hmmm maybe that mix feeling started to attack agian... man i know i got it all under control from the beginning.... i dont want to lose... what would lai ma say... "Damn jai lai you suck... better look for another see fu..." hmmm cant lose man... so i did them corner shots.... mad nice... and i caught up 6 to 6 (point up) we both cant kill eachother for a good 3 rounds... and then i said to myself... time to end it for lai ma... then BANG!! damn nice serve.... hahaha i think he got mad.... he fist the damn ball mad hard.... almost hit me.... (hahaha i dodged it) i think i got him mad.... neways... after 2 games... i went to "study" some new moves... like jsut using enough force (F=ma) so that the ball would do a low soft killer... hmmm maybe a month or 2...  decided not to go... why? dont know... feel kinda bad ditching them... wells i said i'll make it up.. i told her when she returns i'll buy dinner... lol gonna be costly... but it's aite.. i want to go skating with my Lai Ma....  dont kow... i guess i'll be happier go ing with her... want her to witness my first "fancy" and "clumsy" fall... hmmm i want to spend my first skating trip with lai ma... hope she could make it.... hmmmm got to organize... oh why she not on...?? hmmmm probably sleeping... wondering what she doing now....  oh wells... i guess i'll be staying home... hope comes online to keep me company  yea... COME ON LAI MA!!

oh man... no partner... so sad... going ice skating with 2 couples... sigh... no problem i'll skate on my own...   lalala hmmlong time no skate... dont know if i remember.. lol ... i'll record how many times i'll fall... and how...  hmm dont know if i should go... sigh... hmmmm asked like 5 of my friends already... no luck...  yup... dont know... i only know how to go forward... i cant even know how to break... when i want to stop i skate to the side and hit again the side... no one taught me....  oh wells... atleast i can balance... oh wells... hmm sleep early... havent had enough sleep... ok... good night... sweet sweet dreams la... "cum pay ah" .... "dong ah"...

oh... shitty mood again... wells kinda used to it... comes and goes... is it really that hard to enforce a decision ? wells i made one but i just cant stick with it... always contridicting myself... the feeling of mix emtions... i thought that just adapting to the new environment.. the changes.... yea... it lasted for a good 2 days... and then i'm back where i started... why am i not surprised... been through this... capable of dealing this this agony.... but yet again emotions cant be controlled.... sigh...  i tried my best to put it under my authority... i think i'm doing a really bad job.. maybe i just cant face her anymore? it's really hard on me... selfish...am i? so afraid... what happen to the optimistic thought danny? sigh... would this ever end? wells please ... i'm not asking for pity... just want to say whats on my mind... i guess i'm always lending a hand to those who need... but wheres the hand i need like a time like this? a hand which would lift me up from this dark gloomy "well?" wells i guess the best thing you could do for someone is helping them and not wanting anything in return... yea.. sometimes i do feel stupid sitting here and complainning... rather than do something about it... but then again what is there to do? wells i'm trying my best to ... be friends... i guess.... she wanted it that way... cant object to that... when something happened... cant pretend... convincing~~  i feel pathetic saying the same things over and over... just cant help it... i'm sorry if it's bugging you  really cold outside.. hmmm gonna be exetremely cold at night... make sure you have an extra layer of blanket tonight... or you might catch a cold... ok i see you...

Wassup... hmmm skating tomrrow? hmmm not sure... so much people going plus i got work...  hmmm maybe i could get off early... not sure... but i'll try... yup... yea today was kool... i finally finish my damn Calculus homework... it was like 5 pages... sigh... my brain is slowly drifting away... oh wells yup .. call my buddy Chi Kei.... the one who lived 2 buildings away from mine... lol... for like... 15 years... yup... my buddy... he said he has to take a shower... so i went to grand... there... i won a game.... again these good ppl... like adults... o m g... my partner.... sucky... oh wells... i did all the killing... after they lost... they asked us if we want to play for money... i said no... me no like gambling... lol  oh wells...i called him and he picked up ... he was sitting on the benches with norman. ...  another buddy i knew since... first grade ... lol so we went to 34th street... penn ave... lol... dont even know wheres that... oh wells... yea met up with Priotosh... the one i went to Japan with... hmmm i was schedule for an appointment with this guy...Usman... lol for some business career... oh wells we waited for like 30 mins and left... we went to bimpie ... lol reminds me of Quiznos... damn that guy is fast... i felt like making my own sandwich... .yup... we sat there for like 1 hr... talking about... high school and japan... all those unforgettable moments... we were laughing mad loud.. lol we were the only peepz in there... yea... after that we went back to the hotel.... damn that's one big fancy hotel... oh wells waited for another half an hour... yup... sigh... after that we left... hmmmm thought that MACYS was gonna be open... but ... no good... oh wells we went shopping somewhere.... dont know exactly which one.... after we went back to chinatown... went home... too a piss... went back out... oh am i not suppose to tell you that i took a piss... oh wells it was an emergency... yea then we met up in grand... BASKETBALL ... man... i killed them in the game HORSE... o m g... they play like everyday.... yup... then we played around the world.... yup own them in that game too... hmmm maybe i'm lucky today.... or some sort of fluke... oh after that we palyed handball... yup my sport... wells not sure if it's considered a sport... oh wells killed them in that too... sigh.... then i went home... and sitting here...thinking if i should go skating.... hmmmmmmmmmm besides this thanksgiving is the best of all.... usually it's a typical day at the handball court... <<<SO HAPPY>>>... THANKS ALL

Hey... alll wassup... sigh... register for classes yesterday... it was a hard deciding... but i manged to fit all my classes to 4 days... i dont know if i should take another class... right now i'm signed up for only 12 credits... hmmm thats not enought... should i squeeze math in... lol math 575 ... Calculus II ... o m g.... cant imagine it.... anyways,,, that'll give me 16 credits... but i'm think it'll drop my average... and probably cant work anymore... hmmmm Math or no Math... lol my mahor only requires Math 375 ... that means i over did it...  oh yea... to that question i asked earlier... i somehow formulated some kind of undertanding,... lol sounds kinda insane

HI... got a critical thinking quesiton to address the public... Is it possible to control our emotions? the way how we feel?

man it's not even cold... new song...

Oh... I feel useless too... Prima feeling sad... and i couldnt help... she said she's alright... but i feel she's not telling me... lol... sigh... why am i troubled by it? i dont know... wells maybe i found it unusually someone like Prima would be unhappy... wells i guess i was right about life... sadness always donimates happyiness... so it's ok to feel shitty... Hope she feels better... and if it helps she could tell me... me wont tell any one...  hmmm a day off.... how fun.... what is to do at home... thinking..... tihnk ing really hard.... awww nothing to do but homework... really sucky... Math.... only Calculus homework... ok ok better get started if i'm gonna go play handball later... see you guys later...

oh yea... almost forgot... me have to meet up with Kim and Su min ... lol... flushing ppl.... hmmm dont know what to do ... oh wells... they'll tihnk of something ... they always do... lol... ummmm yea... that faggot ditched me again.... sigh... what kinda friend is he... when his other friends call or request soemthing from him... he;s always there...but me... nah... dont know why... oh wells... not gonna let that fuck up my life...hey look prima is on... damn early...!!

Oh ... how sad... my comment was deleted from my friend's site... lol... i didnt post anything nasty or bad... hmmmm maybe she doesnt like me in general. oh wells... thats the last time i'm going there... and i helped her upload a song too!! wow... you could really tell how much you mean to someone... sigh... oh wells cant let this effect me... yea yea i think i need a vacation... wells planning it... we started searching at different agency... but just cant make up out mind... it's ok we got plenty of time... hmmm go on a cruise...? yo i really want to go la... lol never been on one... hmmm suddenly i realized ,,, my life is boring.... always chinatown... lol (not that it's bad) i want to do something with my life... visit some other community and adopt their culture... lol if that it doesnt go again my morals... lol... my Professor said ... you have to cope with the culture around you... when i'm in Poland ... i'm Polish, when i'm in China... i'm Chinese... lol... finally!! the word Chinese is brought up in class... All he talks about is black and white... like chess... and hwo black is always bad... black cat... black tuesday, wearing black during funnerals... yea in chess.. white always goes first and black has to defend... oh man... He also added... going to school doesnt mean you're educated... it trains you to be educated. hmmmm that really makes a lot of sense... man i got work today... kinda sucks... me really looking forward to that vacation... and if anyone of you want to tag along.... maybe.... and maybe..... i'll let you... lol nah just playing... wells let me a comment or call me....(call after 4... me at work.... dont want me to chow "squid" lol... hmmm hope i see you guys soon... lol... man this xanga is so deserted!!

wow terry... kinda cold words comin out... oh wells... the way how i look at it is... wells you're right there's no point of complainning ... i just cant help it... thats all... wells in another perspective ... i just want to speak out my feelings... in another way... record my emotions ... and then refer back to in like ... a few years later...Dont know... but you're right ... i really hate complainning to myself... hmmmm to come to think of it... it's so not like the old me... but if i think further... it is the old me... yea pretty comfusing... i'll figure it out...  "actions are worth a million words" hmmmm disagree... when it comes to emotion... words are worth more... correct me if i'm interpting in correctly... hmmm me in class right now... damn late today... i stayed up all night working on my Cal and research paper... and my Fucking alarm woke me up... i totally ignored it and went back to sleep... i'm was damn late today... the professor looked at me... i looked at her... then i ran to my seat... mad funny... ok ok got a project to do... worth 10% ok bye bye

oh sigh... not done with my reserach paper... mom making me sleep... why am i so sad... liking in a shatter fantasy... i know nothing can be forced... or go my way... but... nah you guys dont understand... maybe time will heal my disappointment...

finally finish... and took a bath... ok ok math is all set.... AND NOW!!! research paper.... still got 2 paragraph to go.... yea just 2... sigh hope i finish today ... and take friday off... no work on friday.... hmmm gonna chill!!! hmmm dont know with who... probably walk around chinatown... the ususal .... me so sad... SiGh...

damn man.... i only did 2 problems in 1 hour... man i'm mad stupid... dman problem mad long.... 1 problem 1 page... and i have 30 problems to do for math... oh man.... need some motivation....

am i that much of a different between the online me and the me in person? i dont know got that today... she claims that i'm so much different... much nicer online... hmmm... dont know... i think too ... wellsi dont know.. what you think? maybei just dont know how to act in front of her... seems confused... yup maybe thats it... sigh i dont know....

hmmm i dont even know what to say.... hmmm yea... oh forget it... hmmm... i always feel so pressured when i'm at home... especially when i'm in front of the computer... yea... just sitting here... thinking... boy...  yes... look at him...oh got homework... dont want to do it... feeling too shitty to do it....

oh... back from work... wells yea... after a game of handball... hmmm... some black guy said he's gonna deck me... oh wells... it's mad stupid... cause he asked me if i was good i ignored him... dont know... i dont want to say anything... to sad to do anything... hmmm i guess i'm back to the old me again... sad and depressed...burrowed in a realm of despair... hmmm i'm losing control.... dont know what i'm doing... mix thoughts just running really fast through my mind... man... dont know.... feel so lonely... just me again this world... i wish i could escape...

Oh man ... feel like i'm failing math... wells not really... just dont understand anything in that class... today i took a short nap in class.... o m g.... almost fell into a deep sleep  oh wells... i d ont learn anything in that class with that "new" professor present... paying them to teach me nothing... cause i have to do my own studying after class.... reading the whole chapter myself and then trying to do the homework... he does a lousy job of teaching... SiGh... oh wells.. back to my Cal H.W

With Prima.... i dont kow... there too much "love" to be friends...  SigH ... there nothing can be done... i guess i'll set my mind to just being friends even though i know it's gonna cause a lot of agony... but as long as she's happy... I've been in the a similar situation... the path i chosen wasnt the one i wanted... hmmm she's been dominating my mind for quite some time... her absences drives me insane... her voice heals my soul... friends...

hey.. i think i'm on drug... a lot at mind... dont know how to realease me sorrows... stuck at home ... staring at the devastating screen... SiGh... today went by fast... another unaccomplished day... one day older... one day closer moving to an end... is life that hard? or am i narrow-minded? wells when you're in the well, all you can see is darkness... but when you're at another angle... it's a different perception... hmm sleep now... bye bye

Awww... man do i look at old? damn... today Tiny (boss' wife) was shocked that i was only 18... she thought i was a junior... man... she said i'm just a child... damn... everyone thinks i'm old...now i know how prima feels... oh wells... hmm thats good ... they treat me like an adult... maybe i act like one during work... but after.... i got crazy   right right? yup yup.... anyways... homework man... lots and lots of them... no stop...

oh man... it's really getting cold... hmmmm here's a song that'll get you colder... lol...yup yup... got school... so sad  hmmm after that i had a meeting at TCI... hehe feel so special... they called me...!! lol... i didnt want to go by myself so i said could my friend join me... and she mishear it and thought i said could my son join... lol  oh wells... she's was really nice over the phone... damn look at the time got to run... dont want to be late... see you~~!!

ok i'm home... yup yup got another A on my essay... so proud... oh yea... DAMN william Ditch me... o m g so damn pissed... "yea i was at frankie's the whole night" yea so what ... so MAD ... went to TCI myself... sigh... i dont even know my place around... oh wells... asked massive ppl... and i finally got there... so happy... had a meeting with some rep. he sounded kool... oh wells after i went to MACY ... yup myself... how lonely  oh wells... yea.. then i went to West 4th... yea saw a couple of game... SUCK LIKE SHIT!! damn... cant even return... oh wells... This is a reminder... DONT TAKE THE SHUTTLE TO WEST 4th  ... i waited 15 mins for the bus and it took 20 mins so mad... hmmm... i should calm down... deep breath ... breathe in.... breathe out.... ok all better... ok ok ... cant wait... so shopping tonight... MACY'S again... hmmmm hope i dont get ditch again...  yea faggot william got a replacement... FAGGOT~~!!! better make it up ... dinner... hmmmm let me see... that like 3 dinners you owe me..

oh my love life sucks... i guess i was curse by someone or something. Hope it's not those love letters claiming that if you dont sent it to 10 ppl within 10 mins you're gonna be cursed for life? my problem had reached out of hand, feel like i'm losing control. i'm back where i was started, a gloomy pitch black hole... hinding... It's always at mind... it's hard to concentrate on other stuff... just me.. been throught that many times... dont know why it's repeating itself. i hope i'm not bugging her with my problems... Any advise? since i've been helping you guys a lot... hmmm if you dont understand... listen to this song...

lol thanks for you comments. there were long comments and there were short ones...  oh my left arm is sore... yea thats good news... been using my left a lot lately... hmmm finally today i could finally put it to work... my left had gotten better... so happy... sooner ... i'll be good like i used to be... i love handball once again... sorry i abandoned you for a short period of time... Oh thanks to Prima... yup she apire me to play again...  Yup yup... oh yea... i got the paper thingy... tell me they have a check prepared for me... yup... my treat to dinner... and you guys cant escape from it... Especially you Prima...  ok ok... yea also my CiTi Platinum card came today... credit card... hmmm under my dad's name... thats not that good... oh wells... he pays for my purchases... hmmm also filled out an application for Discover card... hmmm probably get rejected... cause i applied online and i was declined... stupid... just case i got no credit history... oh wells i'll try it on paper this time... lol with my ugly hand writing they probably wont even look at it... sigh... need a card... Credit is very important... right... oh yea... I openned a saving account with Commerce bank... hmmmm my boss said i could get a credit card from them. yup my boss let me off yesterday... just to "try" to get one... i doubt it... oh wells i went and they old me that if i wanted a secure card or a regular credit card.... lalala ... OMG after she found out i was a student she said me if i want a student credit card... der.... off... lol... oh wells now i'm trying to apply for that... if i fail from doing so i'll get a secure card... hmmm yea hoping discover wont reject me ass again... lol... it was kool at Commerce... i learned a lot about credit cards... hmmm wondering where Prima is at... probably on the highway... heading home... hmmm hope she comes online later... ...  ok got to work on my outline... see you all... have a great nite....

Hi all, do you guys have time to do an evaluation on me? i'm kinda lost . ok ok lets say i've just woken up from a coma... forgotten everything... how would you describe the old me to the new me? and how would you describe our relationship? Thanks for your time... have a great day!

oh this song is very good ... !! Hmmm too sick to write... lot of homework plus work tomorrow... poor danny boi  hmmmm i relate to that face in varies ways... ::bummy::  ... william lost... no Condo for Prima...  very bummy ...

oh i think i have a headache.... i think from the rain... tired... agony... in every way...  hhmmm.... stressed... hmm i'll be better... leave comment to show care.... thanks la... i'll recover fast.... because of you la.... hmmm sick ...

Hey all!! how you been? me? kinda sad... depressed... not sure why... the sun...? nah no one is gonna believe that pretext... i tried thinking less.... but it doesnt help... what shall i do...? hmmm today all my stress suddenly bursted out.... my head was down for most of the day... i didnt want to explode and start cursing at innocent people cause i wasnt "happy"... i held myself back frrom talking to anyone... cause i know if they get on my nerves i'll take it out on them... and thats not good... hmmmm held a lot of shit in.... after work... i tried releaase it on handball... as i said before thats what i turn to when i'm sad / mad ...wells... lol i play handball in any mood... oh wells... let me continue... so i was there at grand playing.... yup yup... and then.... she appeared... oh ... i want to talk to her... (so badly) but if i had i might blow it all on her face.... so i tried to just keep it inside... hmmm... she started asking me mad question...  Are you crying? you look tired... you sad? Aiya... hmmm yea yea... i dont know... somehow i started talking to her... i didnt tell her why i was feeling this way... hmmm quite amazing... dont know.... maybe... it's her eyes or something... i dont know la... after we chat for a while i felt better.. wells it was getting late... she had to pick up her sister... hmmm wells hmmm i was supposedly to go home around 5 or something... but then... i dont know my mind just drifted away with her.... oh yea... it started to rain... and lucky i found a perfect condition umbrella lying next to my book bag.. why not take it and pick it to good use.... wells as we were walking ... the rain became falling down harder and faster... man... 2 ppl under 1 umbrella ... no good... i was half wet and so was she...after she picked up her sister... hmm that an additioon one... oh wells... i didnt want her to get wet... tried to cover her as much as possible.... then she asked me... do you wamt me to walk you home? or i'll take the van here... hmmm i responsed ... take the van,... so... we waited, under shelter, for the van... lol no permit ... the cops came... and said... no van today... take the subway... man... what an asshole... on a rainny day too... hmmm she said she could take the "water street" van... where every that was.... oh wells just follow... since she got no umbrella... then ... we waited... i was really tired and wet.... kinda want to go but cant... cant leave her there... hmmm beside la... just gonna be a while... yup... bah bah bah.... ok the van came FINALLY... yea she got on... and i said bye bye... Ran home afterwards...  dammn wet... hmmm got home and took a bath.... washed mym hair... and took my homework .... calculus... excel exercises... Programming... and my research paper.... all to my dad's room to do... ok ok ok ,,, just remember i had so much work.... ok ok  me go la... see you guys later... ByZzZz HEY HEY wait a minute... yo william tell me if you win.... or lost.... hmmm best luck... oh yea... you dont read my xanga... oh wells... good luck ne ways... ok ok got to go ... man i'm gonna fail...

The victory from yesterday was honored... hahaha.... vincent was supposedly be my partner for a fair match against.... xiao's boyfriend... hmmm "first singles" art-n-design... wow.... and jimmy ex-first double from brooklyn tech.... damn .... whatever... i chose Prima to be my partner... Dont know why... i just had a feeling we could win.... LOL.... good job.... Prima.... <<<<HIGH FIVE>>>> forgot the score.... it wasnt a close game.... and also i cant se at night.... would of finished them faster since Prima had to go....  hmmm today... very bad.... maybe no sun.... somehow i feel the sun's ray gives me energy... a sence of power....man i was mad dead today.... AND HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA the people that are off today.... didnt get to enjoy their day... RAIN RAIN RAIN.... lol sorry la.... just jealous.... oh wells hope you guys have a blast... see you all la.... i need to hmmmm program .... hmmm still...... school is causing a  lot of depression.... handball on the other hand... makes me happy la.... Tip: play more handball with danny la.... please.... lol ok ok man i always say i'm leave but i never leave!!! lol dont know why la..... ok ok ... hmmm let me think of a closing remark.... oh yea once again... <A href="mailt~~~!!@@<~~~!!@@<<HIGH FIVE>>@@!!~~

Quote man .... "there is a difference between knowing the path and walking it..." knowing is believing/dreaming and walking is reality... you can believe whatever you can .... but until you walk it... you'll know the truth. this quote triggered a thought... hmmm i know i'm gonna fail... there's no chance... but then how i know it's true if i never walked the path... fear i guess.... conquer my fears... put to mind that i mean fearless... but until then i'll live in my dreams... i believe it would be soon... soon i will conquer my fears and speak what is deep inside...

Yo it's william's birthday today.... you didnt notify me? why not... would of celebrate it with you... i know how it feels ... spending the day like a normal day.... o m g i know william's password... its the same as mine... cant beileve it... awww man he's yelling at me on the phone... i forgot his birthday.... lol taht bullshit again... how long i know you.... hmmm 7 years... man i know i know him for 7 years... come on ... he never told me.... he always asked me to guess.... oh wells now i know it's today.... hmm HAPPY BDAY.... own you one... a belated bday for you la....  oh yea he also told me he brought a lottery.... WILLIAM WIN MAN.... I buy you that condo.... remember.. . me and prima is looking forward to it... WISH YOU WIN MAN<<<>>> ... just dont forget about me... wells... just get me a condo for prima dont want nething else....