Hey all....*new song for all... dedicated to Lai ma*... ummm yea... all negatives today.... from yesterday... i slept early... hmm approximating... 11.... i felt asleep.... wheni woke up today... i felt fully rejuvenated... oh yea... got to work...late cayse my mom made me eat... noddle she cooked... when i got to the tran station.... the train just arrived... Perfect timing... good good...yea.. when i got to BB... the 5 arrived too... yup kinda tight in the morning.... ummm when the train stopped at 14st... i knew as soon as this train move... my heart would start throbbing again... hmmm 2 mins after the train left the station... Boom Boom... oh... agony... painful... oh... took all da pain in... as soon as the train got to 42st...the pain vanished... hmmm.... mysterious... dont know... neway... went to work.... i was 15 mins late... haha... neways... asked sonia to teach me some more alphabets... hmmm yea... i was out of it today... i cut phil with da knife.... oh boy... god i feel so fucked...FUCKED!! neways.... Priotosh called me at 12... yea.. i have to give him back a folder... hmmmm yea so i have to meet him at Delancey.... hmmmm so it was kinda cool today.... yea.... jenny gave me a hug ???  dont know why.. she seem happy today... thats good... cause lately she was depressed..... so... it was soon 3.... such a long day.... ususally when it's time to leave i leave.... but today... i want to stay... i stay there chatting for 15 mins.... sigh... i know i'll be lonely today.... dont kow why... just a hunch that i will... neways... yea i took the E train to west 4th... ummm i waited on the S train side... hmmm i was gonna go see if prima was at grand then walk to meet up with prio... there... i saw BinYun... one of da twins... lol she was standing there... so i pretended i was some stranger and i asked her for her number... lol... man she recognize me.. after so long... damn damn... neways... we chat for a while... the train wasnt there yet.. damn S.... so i ran over to the other platform... caught the F and took it to Delancey... yea... Prio was standing there... hmmmm... with a friend... yup ... he took the folder and left.... hmmm thought we could chat for a while....  neways.. went to grand... saw prima there... dont know what to say.... so didnt say.... just played handball in the cold untill i lost the ball...  ummm yea... then i walked vincent to the end of the corner... and he left.... and i was just standing at grand watching them kids play.... oh wells... later it got kinda cold so i went hold... i turned on the computer.... wait a minute... 19?? ummmm HEY ANNIE's Birthday... yup yup.. went to her site and gave her a comment.... and found sent her 3 birthday cards... yup... took a while to search for them... Wish you a Happy happy birthday...  only wish others... never had a happy or memoral birthday.... neways... yea... so i was thinking... why i complain that i dont understand others when i dont even understand myself... sometimes... hmmm rather most of the time... i dont truely know what i'm doing.... and it all fucks up... that confusion.... just FUCKS everything up... from HAPPY to SHITTY damn... like a fucken virus.... dont know how long it's gonna last.... wells eventually it'll go away.... i guess i did a good job trying to keep it away... hmmm around 2 weeks... but now i'm shit again.... neways... yea... terry is back from cali... hmmm he called me... as private... so i had no idea... wah.... oh terry.. wait ... 3 way with my friend bobby.... yea and then they took over da convo.... i was just there listening... felt so left out....i guess thats why i have these long ass entries... so i could speak out....  oh oh i checked on blackboard... this site that allows you to check your grades online... hmm i only got it for the 2 computer class... i got an A on MS101...  i dont even know why am i not blissed about it... a 98.1 out of 100.... not the final but the grand total for all the assignments test and everything. take a look la...

.... yea.. i got another final tomrrow... english... wish me luck again... "video games are design to give you an eye-hand coordination and also creates a fantasy world for its player... while the player is in this realm... they could free themself from daily stress and take control of some form...." quoted... wells not a direct quote... edited from danny liang's research paper... i guess this is true since i got an A on it... lol... of course it is... i wrote it ... wells it's time to escape (starcraft) ... so i'll see you... happy birthday annie... once again... hope i'll feel better next entry...

8:10PM still feeling down....