The first thing I thought of when I woke up this morning was my girlfriend's expression when I gave her that rose. I also thought of her birthday that is coming up. Hmmmm gave it a thought and concluded with this, buy her flowers in the morning (12 roses) (6 other type) and shock her in the morning. Then after school we're going to to the movies. Then probably eat the end the night with a sweet hug or a kiss . Hmm should also add a present. Should I? Think i'm using a lot of money already but I want her to have the best birthday EVER!!  

     Back to the trip to Roosevelt Island. The trains was messed up. No train goes to ROosevelt Island. I asked many times How can we get there and they said you have to take the shuttle. shuttle=train right? How dumb can I be? They meant the shuttle bus out of the stop Queen Plaza. Before we found out we were traveling in circles.

     Finally we got out of the confusion and soon took the bus to our destination. It was beautiful viewing across the bridge. When we got there we found a bench and we sat there and we talked for a long time with the Bright Blue river in front of us. Our conversation carried on and it got to a point she told me her past. She told me something that I didnt need to know and would be better if I didnt know. I was disappointed throughout the whole trip after she teared about her incident. I try to cover it like I didnt mine but I really cant. It even still lives on with me now. Evertime I think of that incident I feel really angry. To stop thinking about it I'll have to recall sweet moments and thing we did together. She said did she mine I said no but really I did a lot. I really wish my brain was a hard drive so I can just delete the memories I didnt want to remember. Ahhhhhhhhhh What should I do? I really love her and I'm not going to let go but ......... Man I dont know so much confusion. For her i'll try to overcome this.

     Once again I have to go to school. Have to plan out the party with my friend. Bye bye miss you all.