Is life worth living for if you have to go through so much? Everything could change within a second. You can be so happy really really happy then sad the next really really sad. I guess life is like that everyone has to suffer. All is left is memories stupid memories that are redundant. Should just move on with life and never look back. Everything looking back is only going to make you cry.

     I dont know right now. I'm having mix feeling and so confused. I dont know whatshe wants. I cant do nothing but wait. I think I know what went wrong but i'm not sure. Has she been having this feeling or it just start? I wish I could find out. Having a 6th would be good. Opening her heart so I could see whats inside and hows shes feeling.

     Am I a good boyfriend? This question I couldnt even answer. I know I could answer that question with so much confidence when we just started but right now I dont know. Maybe I stop being so nice to her. Everything has it reasons. Didnt want to be so nice to her cause of this. When something happen or something went wrong I wont be so sad. loosing up your relationship but I guess this created untrust? Maybe shes having difficult adopting to this change.

     I really want her to give me a clear answer. I guess her feeling is temporary. I guess time will change her feeling. In the meanwhile I have to fix myself it and give her back the feeling. Dont know how i'm going to do it but I will because I love her a lot.

     I wish this doesnt have to end so fast. I want to give her her surprise. That big surprise i've been preparing. Dont know will she like it as much now. I dont want to throw the presents away not this bond has been weaken. All those time buying presents, wrapping it, decorating it, and thinking about it is not going to be appreciated.

     Oh I guess this is probably the best entry so far. I like this entry too it really explain myself. I'll try to write more similar entries like this one. Now comes the time to go to school. Bye all I'll miss you