Jealousy! What does it really mean? Doesnt really know but I feel that way all the time. that feeling is so hard to take. Have you ever felt that way before? I know I had, many times too. Jealousy can realy test out how much you love him/her. Even a simple touch on the hand can get you so mad and jealous. I dont know am I crazy. It's just a simple touch on the hand but I dont know why I am feeling so mad. It this feeling natural or am I just making a big fuss out of it?

     When I see them together I get so jealous. I just want to run away from it all. Why in front of me? Even though its just its not done purposely I'm still jealous. Maybe I love her to much. Is there a way to let her know? I dont want to throw myself at her. It feels like that at times, how I offer my assistance and then end up rejected. I wonder does she feel that same way I do..........

     Today, my friend ask me a question that really got me to think. "I dont need you but I want you" Do you know what it means? I know precisely what it means because I asked her this question before. It means you dont need them (survive without them) but you want them. (want their love) I dont know am I explaining it correctly. Correct me if i'm wrong.

     Today I also got back my report card. Overall I was really satify. It pass everything with 80 and above but there was a class that I got 75 in. Its gym so it doesnt matter. Usually when I get a 75 I feel proud but now I dont feel that way. Has my expectation change? I guess it did. I started to do all my homework and study for exams. I dont want to waste my time doing stuff that hads no future. I'm going to move on and think about my future instead of lying on my bed thinking about the past.