Man I got school today. Woke up at 7 a.m. dress up wrote another poem. This one is better than the previous one. Then went I arrive it was mad boring. Me and my friend left when we had that 5 minute break. Soon i'm alone again. She said she doesnt want to come out so I left her alone. I had nothing to do so I went to buy The SIMS (A Computer Game) at J&R. Damn man cost $32 but its worth that smile on her face.  Mad tired!! Thinking about her keeps me awake. Here enjoy my poem.

     Poem number 2

The clock is ticking,

 Running out of time,

Stay beside me,

Hold me,

Love me,

Before time runs out.

     So worry after trying to call her for the 6th time. No answer. I became more anxious and more worried. I think the unbalance of our love for one another is creating these problems. Dont very girl wants a boyfriend that really cares about them and love them? I could even say dont everyone wants that. Well i dont know about her but I sure want some of that which I rare get. After I finally got through I had this short conversation with her my phone ended our conversation. Hoping she would call be back i quitely sat there. No answer...... Hate myself for caring so much. Hate myself for loving so much. This barrier is creating so much problems. Why does it always have to be me? Why dont she call be back after she sees that 6 missed calls? Why do I have to make the move. Its like without her I cant survive. So hard to take.

     So dumb. I'm so stupid convincing myself with the message she sented me. All those memories is what I have of her. When she makes me sad I just think back to the times we shared happily but I cant really find much instead I find more moments that I'm cold and sad. Why do i have to be in love? Why does she care about me? I gave her that 6 calls for nothing? Doesnt it means anything to her? I really want her to answer these questions but i'm really afriad to ask. I just keep on telling myself that that i'm not going to do it but i tend to do it anyways. Its the feeling of love that is making me do this. why cant she appreciate it and treat me the same way? Why do we have this barrier? No more No more .................... Feeling so empty once again. So cold!!! Why am I treating her so nice? Shes going to response by I didnt ask you to do it you. So cold!!! Its like i'm repeating myself. Thats because thats the only thing that is going through my mind right now and I cant stop thinking this mistreatment and this barrier. She states that she doesnt know how to love but thats an excuse not to love. Everyone knows how to love. Just say what you feel. Do what you feel. Its just that easy. She doesnt gives me a feeling that everything I do for her is worth it instead she gives me a feeling that all i'm doing is garbage and worthless. Ahhhhhhhhhh the more I tihnk the bigger the problem is. Help Help Help bye bye bye Talk to you guys tomorrow. Good night...............