Is it possible to remain friends with your ex-girlfriend? This is an opinion question so it’s Okay if you disagree with me. This is how I see it; no, it isn’t possible. Especially if you’ve gone out for a long time and really understand each other. Sudden she calls out a break-up without giving you a good explanation. Days after that are harsh. You’ll constantly have memories and image of her. Daydreams and dreams are all about her. You’re already having so much difficulties and plus you have to deal with her. When you’re around her you’ll tend to get as close as you can but realizing that you’ve lost this bond, you have to stop yourself from being too friendly. That feeling is like wanting to wear that shirt that you really love but it doesn’t fit no more. Being around her is one of the hardest things I had to overcome. There isn’t anything to say to her anymore. I see her trying to get me talking to her but I just can’t. I have so much to say but I just don’t know how to put it. When I’m around her I feel the pain and love and when I’m not I feel it too. So neither way I still feel it. IT just hurt so much. So tired of convincing myself. So tired of every shit. So speechless. Maybe if we’re driven to our conversation I’ll remember those memories we shared. When I’m around her I don’t know what to do. Am I still a Boyfriend? Ex-boyfriend? Friend? Stranger? Sometimes I want to hold her hand but I know she wouldn’t allow me to or just a hug. Hearing her laughter makes me want to cry. How can one have no emotion toward this break-up, it’s like she didn’t really care. My friends encourage me to accept the fact it’s over and just be friends. But do you know it’s this hard? Do you know how much it hurts? DO you know? I finally found a friend that really understands how I’m feeling. When I asked him this question he answered no and gave me all explanation that I was feeling. I felt so happy to know that there is such a person out there that felt the same way.

     Yesterday when I left my friend’s home he grabs a bag of something. I asked who it is for he answered his girlfriend’s name. I came to think why he could just say his girlfriend since I don’t really know his girlfriend’s name. I asked him what is it and he answered just 2 caps and a necklace. Why 2 caps? He answered that she wanted the red one but I thought that the blue one would look good on her. Why a “sweet guy” like him have to be treated like this. We called and called. She finally said it’s time. She told us to come over. So we walked there. I asked him is it for her birthday and he answered yes? When was it? He said last week. Why didn’t she take it last week? Because she kept on saying tomorrow, tomorrow he answered like she didn’t really care about her present from a special boyfriend. When we got up there he called her and asked her to come out and take it. I was amazed when he just threw it on the floor. I asked him aren’t you going to see her or give it to her in person? He answered it doesn’t matter. You spend so much time picking out the present, you can at least get a hug or a kiss or just a simple thank-you. He said he didn’t care. I wait for her to come out and I saw her for the first time. She was ok. Their relationship reminds me of ours, used to be ours but no anymore. I guess he was mad or me or something he just left me in the dark. I just wanted to tell him stop convincing yourself, If she loves you can feel is just don’t convince yourself like I do all the time. I soon found myself gradually walking into the streets ignoring traffic lights. I felt so sad. When I heard the Honk that when I really woke up from my daydream. A car honked at me when I was charging out to the streets during a green light. Nothing happen after that, I just walked home.

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