Oh..... Its now 6:55 a.m. Almost time for school. These days I havent feeling myself. The old, happy Danny. I now have a habit of waking up at 6 a.m. Dont know why is that. Maybe I miss my girlfriend too much I even see her in my dreams these few days (No, not wet dreams). 

     I have a conversation with my girlfriend yesterday it was about being strong on our relationship. I guess i'm being too strong on our relationship think I should loosing up. Shes very flexible. Guess I have to change to be more flexible too because I end up hurting myself.

     Yesterday after i finish my college one on one I ran downstairs to my chinese teacher to look for her. She wasnt there then I ran downstairs to the cafeteria to look. No luck I ran up to the 5th floor to see if she was there. Nope that feeling is really empty. The eagerness to wanting to see her. I then went down to the 3rd floor to the tutoring room. I founded her my frown turned to a smiley and my emptiness was once full with love . I sat there next to her hoping she would say something sweet. She didnt even look at me that was OK since she was doing her H.W. I sat there watching her still hoping she would say something sweet. I cant hold it no more and I said i went all over to look for you (hoping she would response with O you did I was here all along or something like that) but she response with none of my business. My heart was ripped. I sat there for a little longer then I left cause I cant take that from someone I love.

     Seems like I'm doing too much. Shes not appreciating none of it. I would like her to say Thankz Honey when I take off my shirt on a cold October evening to cover her cause I thought she was cold. Nope you're right thats not the response I got. She said you just took it off I didnt ask you. She then gave me back it i didnt put it back on because that shirt cant help me I was cold both outside and inside.

     I have decided to not be so caring to her no more but I still love her a lot. I'm not going to show it anymore.

     Cant talk no more I have to go to school. I'll continue my writing tomorrow OK? Promise