Ahhhhh... Kinda tired. Man! Can you believe it I went to school on Halloween? Today was very mundane. Nothing new but I promise to write yesterday. What should I write about my boring life or my relationship? Ok Ok Shouldnt even ask.

     Felt so lonesome this morning when I was walking to school alone. This isnt often because I tend to pick up my girlfriend at her building. I leave extra early to walk over ( not located on the path of my school) and pick her up and walk her to school. When had I mention that I do so she said I didnt ask you to. Hmmm kinda hurt but I just take it as a joke and gives her a smile like this

     Today my attempt to be more flexible wasnt a success. I dont know why when I say something I cant do it. I feel like a loser. My plan was to make her give me back that feeling but it didnt work. The more I care less the more pain i'm in. She still had the same attutide of not caring. I still have that feeling that she still loves me. Lets hope she does.

     She once said to me that "The more I think of you the more i hate you thats because I care" I was touched by her words. Her way of treating me isnt always been so bad its a sometime thing. Sometimes good and sometimes bad.

     Am I asking too much from her? Am I giving her too much pressure? Am I just thinking too much? I dont know when to treat her well and when to not. I sure can go for a hug from her now.

     I always thought she was the one for me but i'm having doubts now. Her apparence in my life had always been special. I never had this feel about anyone else before. I really love her a lot. I think you can tell him these 2 entry. Can you?

     Hey cant talk any more. I have to do my homework and study for the SAT( this saturday) wish me luck passing. Well there isnt a passing grade but a high grade. OK thankz for you luck i'll need a lot of it. BYE BYE