oh boy.. got work... didnt realized it when till i looked at the stupid compuiter clock... neways got to run.... and High Five Lai Ma for our victory... (killing that nigga)

aiya... tired from work... Me so happy... some one just invited me to play handball at west 4th... oh... long time no see him... who wanna join...?? he said the best players in the city plays there... right.... whatever.. i dont care... i just dont want to paly in grand.... newhere besides grand..... always playing against the same ppl....  hmm maybe his srping recess... prima .. wanna join? lol... probably not...Oh FUCKEN BOBBY IS DRUNK!!! hahahaha talking mad shit over the phone... macardi... lol... stupid sick fuck... i'll probably see him sleeping next to a piece of shit tomorrow morning.... Wow... havent seen this side of him... oh wells... i'm tihnking about dinner tomorrow... dont know if william wants to join... he said... "i have to see if my wallet agrees" lol... i'll probably pay for him if he goes....yawn.. kinda late.... AND WHERE IS PRIMA!! lol my lai ma is missing... anyone seen her?

WHAT UP ppl.... Hey, danny been killing mad nigga in handball at the jay street handball court... yup.... a chino came up to me and asked me if i want to play... i said nah... i dont play with chinks... lol.. my black nigga... lol... was cracking up.... nah .... play with too much chniese ppl... they all play the same... they not as cocky as them niggas.... They talk mad shit before and after the game. Yea... they be like "yo Nigga you like that chiense boy kick your ass..." And my black friend be like... nah man his mama is black... lol... yea i remember last semester.... this black nigga side betted on my game... it was 24/18... and i was down... this nigga bet 10$ on me... and somehow i won... hmmm dont know how... but i did it... hmm and this nigga said what up to me... i dont even know him... 2 mins after he left i remember him... i beat him before... hehe... man i'm just handball crazy... neways.. prima needs help on the poem... and you ppl didnt help her... ok ok the last line.... hmmmm wells the theme is ambiguous... i guess he's trying to relate da poem to our lives... how we always rushing into things and we dont see the bueaty...he describe the beautiful scene... watching the woods fill up with snow.... and they horse thinks he's a queer... then at the end... the travel reminds himself he has duties.... he has a destination in life... and yes it's a beautil scene ok... now i have to carry on... another words move on... and there's a long route ahead of him... there are miles to go.... before i sleep.... hmmm sleep.... i guess... his death.... he deliberately repeat it 2 times to get his point across... lol... i dont know if my interpetation make ne sense .. oh man... my classes are so boring... i find myself literally sister there...  wells except for english.... i'm always listening and copying notes... but da other 3 classes... o m g so boring ... i just sit there nothing to do!!!!!!!! i finished da program on 2/20 and it's due today... lol and the other class i finished it last class session... and they were still working on it... wells i walked around and helped others.... lol.... met a lot of new ppl....  AND my accounting,,,, basically ... sleeping... actually i did....  so damn boring... he's doing the same shit over and over and over again.... but still ppl dont get it.... sigh... a test is comin up... have to study... oh yea... i also have a test on thursday ... for english.... 2 test on thursday.... MAN work tomrrow.... oh wells.. thats life... yea me and that faggot was chilling mad late... lol mad gay... we were chilling in my hallway... just talking ... talking... about stuff college...stuff girl stuff.... sigh.... so much thoughts to be recorded... i guess i turn to my xanga.. cause there isnt ne one else to turn to.... I LOVE YOU XANGA... you free my from repression.... lol....

Danny been very busy lately. No time to see his friends. He wants to share a poem with his fellow xangers if there are any.

Stopping by Woods on a Snowy Evening

By Robert Frost

Whose woods these are I think I know.

His house is in the village though;

He will not see me stopping here

To watch his woods fill up with snow.

 

My little horse must think it queer

To stop without a farmhouse near

Between the woods and frozen lake

The darkest evening of the year.

 

He gives his harness bells a shake

To ask if there is some mistake.

The only other sound's the sweep

Of easy wind and downy flake.

 

The woods are lovely. dark and deep.

But I have promises to keep,

And miles to go before I sleep,

And miles to go before I sleep.

oh boy... lot of work lately... BUT still have time for handball and friends.... hmmm getting kind rusty.... damn... lost to them stupid brokkyln ppl today so sad.... oh wells i was prepared... i just came out to meet up double william... didnt intended to play... lol neways... yea thats it... and MY old buddy almost got me... he said whos this... o m g but luckily he was playing... hehe... yea now that he has a girl.... who the fuck needs danny... YEA DINNER WAS THE BOMB... yup after work went you to eat... yea... ever lie down on the monkey bars at columbus at midnight looking up at the sky... hmm the clouds move swifty.... Boy... DAMN asshole didnt let me get some beer.... it would of been a better night with beer... ne ways ... i brought a lottery... and I WON I WON I WON.... lol yup i did 1 number hehe... william brought one too the mega million.... hmmm hope he has better luck than me... HEHE they asked him for ID hahahaha so funny ... he doubted me when i went in to buy lottery that i dont need an ID.... HEHE wells she just gave it to me.... i tihnk i look very old.... neways i got to go... sleep sleep...

Sigh.. i dont know what i did was the right thing...i dont think it was nice at all but i know i would definitely feel better after a while... i turned down a friendship... i'm really depressed... wow ... i'm really stunned after i wrote "i turned down a friendship" lol neways school time... oh yea... i killed mad ppl at jay street handball court... o m g... WHOS THE MAN.... i beat this old man with a racket... wells of course he had to go a little ez... at first i was down by like 8 then i said fuck it.. whip serves... lol.... caught him a few times.. if the court would have been better i would have played much better... the courts there are worst than grand... cracks on the wall and the floor... WOW i had more to talk about with handball than my mixed emotions..

It's so weird... sometimes i dont know what i'm doing. wells most of the times i really dont know what i'm doing... i could only do what i feel is right... or rather what i think is right...i just feel so lost... i saw my mind is empty but really i'm just ignoring those thoughts...

Oh prima is gonna stay home... lol... I DONT BELIEVE IT... hehe.. oh man mad tired... i felt so stupid today.... and yesterday.... my sister asked me what time i got school tomrrow and i told her at 2 and she kept on questioning my answer... i was like wtf at 2 FUCK.. but then i realized that i have school at 10.... tuesday... not monday... i'm such a dumb idiot... oh wells... got school now.. talk to you guys later,...

mind has been blank lately...dont know whats wrong. i hope i know whats wrong with me... yea.. you're right christina ... havent seen you for a long time... hehe .... accounting sucks... you should know su min.... you getting it? boy i'm so lost in that class... HAHA ... if william loses... HEHE   remember our bet....

Hey Buttbe... dont be laughing... basketball was your date... haha... lol ... neways.... "Life is strange and chaangeful! how little things is needed for us to be lost or ro be saved!"

handball today.... lol on valentiens.... SiGh what a loser.... YEA i'm mad tired... i played a lot of games.... I was at grand since... 11... and left at like 3... then went to cherry and left around 6... thats a lot of hours... but overall.. i was good.. i guess i got my "skills" back... if you guys consider it skills... or just getting flukey with ym shots... oh wells.... hmmmm yea.... hmmm so weird today.... most ppl that were at grand... had g/f and b/f .... wonder why they at grand.... wells for me... it's simply .... NO DATE.... neways.... me bouncing... tired....

day off...

"i think i am getting wut he means by being a nice guy is err wut he said? annoying.. or smthing..." Yea i can see that too... sigh... i dont know.... when i see you have a problem i somehow becomes my problem too... i dont have ne more authority over myself ... I try to control it but just cant.... I'm sorry... Cause i really wish This kinda of emotion could really go away for good. it's been causing a lot of agony... Boy... i knew this was gonna happen... then why?

SIgH... really busy lately.... Every time i sign online... a bunch of ppl ask me for HeLp... Hmmmm and i really try to help them.. but sometimes... i really dont have time... SiGh... Sometimes poor Danny needs help... And who do i turn to...? Just asking... dont really expect an answer... Neways... I saw Prima today... and ... she still havent got her phone Thingys Done yet.... i try to help... i got a lot of ppl helping me find an expired plan nextel Sim card... Elaine said her friend got one.... but... Sold.... her dad... Nah i called and he doesnt have it... Got vincent heling me... Really thank him... cause he's in St. John... a lot to worry about... should bug him... May... Yea got her working for me... Hmmmm Asked ... alot of PPL... no luck... Went to 7 stores around chinatown... or is it more than that... i forgot... Damn fucker .... $50.... but May found a store that is selling a sim card... expired one for $25.... hmmm so far .. i think thats the best.... or... elaine got a friend .... that works in dytnasy that is selling a new sim for ... $35 .... hmmm or i'll ask eddie's brother... to get a discount... since he still owes me money.... hmmm Yea asked that Alan... he wouldnt even pick up.... Damn.... Oh Fuck... my computer got fucked up... i cant believe this nerd cant fix it... i gave up and formatted it... now it's good as new... NEWAYS a lot of homework... i talk to you guys later.... DONT worry Prima... Lai Jai.... will help you la...

The story of a broken heart

 

 

I looked forth the misty fog and I see a blissful place not far away from where I was standing. I dropped my head downward and saw pitch black darkness. I took a step back from the cliff. And my eyes started to rumble with tears. I kneed down on the rocky surface and cover my face with my hands. Why! I asked over and over. Suddenly a spark of snow white flashed before me.

The flare took me back to the past. I looked around and around I wasn’t on top of the mountain anymore. I was … Yes! my destination. And look is that my … my love? Yes it is. As I was approached her, another glare exploded; but this time it was gloomy black.

I was back where I started. My heart began to throb like it was being attacked but billions of ants. Thousands of thoughts busted out from my head. Each thought was took a side and the following thought contradicted that thought. Perplexity stroke me again. 

I looked forth again and this time the foggy mist is gone. I could see a clear image of the other side. I see laughter, I hear freedom, and I feel happiness. This craving trying to get to the other side has created another me, one that is silent and always in repression. Maybe it’s just a temporary feeling. I convince myself this temporary feeling would go away.

I look forth again. The more I look across the stronger craving. As Buddha stated “Craving comes from suffering” and only by following the 8 fold path you can reach Nirvana: Right View, Right Intention, Right Speech, Right Action, Right Livelihood, Right Effort, Right Mindfulness, and Right Concentration.

After refreshing my mind, I didn’t dare to look over again. I know it’s a vast sacrifice getting over to the other side. I might slip, or step into a crack on the unsecured bridge. The bridge connecting us wasn’t too far apart, but each step took a lot of courage. “Craving is suffering” I tell myself over and over again but it never gets into my mind.

I then became fidget; I sat on the lumpy floor even though it wasn’t comfortable I had to accept it. I starred up at the sky from day to night and from night to day. My eyes really opened up. In the morning, I would watch the clouds passed by and I would float along the sky with them. And when night came, I would light up the night with my pal moon.

After X amount of time, my craving no longer exist. I looked around and I started to question “Where?” I look forth but there weren’t anything there. Then I look back and I saw a bridge connecting to the other side of the mountain. The other side was filled with dark spirits of loneliness and emptiness. I turned around and looked up.

                                                                                                By : XXXXX XXXXX

I went back to grand after class... oh man... i really suck.... hmmm... i dont have the "Feel" ... the amount of momentum ... all downs and shit... i guess i'm rusty after all... yea went to school and i met su min.. o m g.. she showed me how to take da bus... the B51... takes me right to china town... within 5 mins... oh and there i am... taking the 15 train what an idoit...lol... oh wells... went back at night... oh cant see shit... lol... YEA didnt see shit... i was playing and 2 girls join in... yea i drag william's ass out there with me... neways... yea so we were playing with 1 ball ... and she hit it out... so i went to get it... then william got one... and i was like wtf and he threw it at me... i missed... and one of da girl caught it right there with her left.... O M G SHIT SHIT on the fucken ball.... lol...  she CURSED.... fucken scumbag...o m g... me and wiliam left when allen decided to play chinese handball.. o m f g,... she was ... lol so funny.... lol HAHA... yea wililam came over to my home... played puzzle fighter.... he wanted to play master mode.. .no counter.... lol i lost like 3 games.. then i fucked him up good.. he wouldnt leave!! Yea... neways... ok i got work tommorrow... see ya... good night.... and sweet dreams..

hey hey... just woke up.... oh man.... school's in an hr... neways... yea... Nai Nai just popped in mine... wonder hows hes doing? hehe

oh just came back from my first class....something struck me.... you know how sometimes someone complains about what they dont have and how much they want it.... they dont realize what they already have....so there's not need to crave.... this world run with or without .... lol.... man i have to finish this accounting problem ... so i could go to grand and smack around

Ribbit Ribbit? oh no... someone turn my Lai Ma in to a Ribbit Ribbit Froggy... hmmmm oh wells... who said you cant have a frog for a lai ma... kinda awkward but acceptable.... hehe.... oh man.... studying early in the morning... kinda sucks... i hape the courts clear up before valentines.... lol... cause i'll be standing there.... smacking around.... hope no one else is on that court.... Hope Everyone else is Having a Blast....  hmmm got to go for now....

OMG ... Danny Leung... i have him in my COBOL and JCL class.... my black friend was like... yo ... i have 3 classes with him... and i also have 3 classes with you... oh Fuck.... lol WTF this guy.... man.... shocking... he better not be another 4.0.... if he is.... man.... Leung.... i think it's orginated from HK and liang is from Canto... hehe... i'm more of a FOB.... hehe.... hmmm i dont know if he's a fluent canto speaker.... OH AND HE BETTER NOT KICK MY ASS IN HANDBALL IF HE PLAYS.... o m g... i dont want to lose to a "me" wannabe... arggggg.... man he kept on following me and my black friend.... so ignoring.... Man... and he's from manhattan... next thing .... be might be living a few blocks away from me.... BUT!!! it was kool meeting him.... hehe.... So how was your Day Prima.... lol since you're the only one who reads this shit.....

OH.... today .. lol... funny... wells.. i was doing my homework in the morning... hmmm it always happen.... i'm late...!! i dont intend to... but... i dont know.... i cant motivate myself to get out of da house ne earlier.... neways... when i got there.... FUCKEN LONG ASS LINE... i cant wait.... ran up 10 flights of stairs.... hmmm lets say within... 3 mins... neways... got there ... took a seat... hmmm so weird... so many people... oh wells... i guess it's ok....  hmm so as he was doing da attendance... he called liang... wells thats atleast what i thought.... you know... non-asians cant really pronounce chinese last names... neways... so i said present.... and this guy ... a new guy... didnt see him in da last class... he said... danny liang.. as though he was varifying.... MY NAME??? the professor said yes... i was like WTF.... so ironic... lol.... he said i'm danny liang... lol... the professor was like... so there's 2 danny... one is Leung and a Liang.... lol... kool man... oh wells.... after class i went to my old professor... and he was making jokes on me... oh wells.. i was just stalling... so i could compress some files that i need for the other class... man thats mad smart... i compressed the whole folder that we need for the semester into a zip file and uploaded it to my nyu account... kool huh.... neways .... ate lunch with da black dude... always da black dude... oh wells he's kool.... HE GOT FUCKEN PROMOTED ... argggg..... $12 an hour.... asshole... oh wells... yea... the met up with da wing guy... lol... da chinese dude da speaks spanish.... yea.. he sold me the accounting book for $53... hmmmm oh wells.... that a good price.... when i'm selling it back out i'm gonne sell it for $70 lol... yup... i posted up my flyer for da MS101 office Xp book.... ?? the flyers are gone .... strips of my number and name are gone... what happen.. no phone calls yet.??? oh wells after english class... i went to check out da price... $70 fuck... went to check out da flyers.... $30... lol just called... and she sold it... oh wells.. call again... wait up...wait... check online... maybe.... hehe... sigh... i'm really tired... i got to do my accounting h.w .... lol... dont know prima just popped in mind... yea... you sound good  notlike a frog... like a princess... hehe ... neways i got to get going... this shit is waiting for me... yea and that william took my books... fucken $200 .. loser... you owe me... like a lot of dinners and arcades... and whatever i could come up with...